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Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Can't you just let it stop?

Can't you just let it stop?

That's all I'm asking for....
Waking up in the morning seeing someone you love suffering in not a simple matter. This is exactly what I have to deal with every day.

For quite sometime now, my Dad has been seriously sick. He's dealing with pain for a long time now. As a Family, we have been dealing with it together with him. Lemme tell you, it's not easy. We all need to stay strong for my father. It's not just him who's fighting this battle, we are fighting with him.

I, personally, can say that this is not just a simple battle because we don't even know how to fight it. But we are doing our best in any which way.

I have heard so much from so many people with regards to how to deal with it. We have tried so many ways. We need to find a good Doctor/Hospital... We need to get the right medicine.... We need to watch his diet... We need to be with him all the time... We need to pray... WE HAVE TRIED AND DONE ALL THAT!

How would you feel or deal with waking up everyday seeing SOMEONE you love suffering and giving up?

Yeah, my Dad is giving up now. We know that he's been struggling with this battle for quite sometime now. Like him, we are all tired now. My Dad is just tired now... And it kills us knowing that he is. He knows that we are with him, fighting with him. The worst part of it is, he's just the only who's getting all the blows. We can also feel the each gust but not as solid as he does. He is so beaten up that's why he's already giving up.

What will you do if you see your love one suffering each day?

No matter how much you wanna help him, it feels like you just don't have any power to do so. It kills me every time I see him tormented from so much pain. I have been praying so hard in order for me to get all the pain away from him. I'm young and stronger than him, I can deal with it. I have been praying so hard to spare my dad from all the suffering. I am... I truly am.

How would you feel when you know that you have given enough to help someone you love but nothing seems to matter?

Maybe what we thought as enough is not even half enough to help my Dad. Maybe the kind of enough we know is just less than what we should have been giving him. Maybe Enough is not just ENOUGH.

I want his pain to go. I want him to get well. I want to stop his misery. I want him to stay strong. I want him to live....

What/How will you feel if you see the end in the eyes of SOMEONE you love the most?

I don't wanna give up. I wanna continue to fight. I wanna be his strength. I wanna be tough for him.... I wanna HUG him, tell him I LOVE HIM, ask him not to give up... Pa, please for us... please...

But if his time is nearing its end, can it be just quick. Quick that he won't feel anything. His pain is just too much and it's not fair to prolong his agony. Just make it quick. Don't let him suffer anymore... You can just let it stop. Please just let it stop....

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